well not like she was gone for a long time.
we had a falling out about a month ago,
but i ran into her last night and it was just like old times...
which kind of scares me.
we just lead two very different lifestyles.
with her its just so easy to get caught up and forget about my morals and priorities.
at first the lifestyle was so glamorous.
shes a playmate so money's never an issue.
we can always get in anywhere we want.
VIP, the whole nine yards.
but the lifestyle that comes along with it is completely insane.
the partying, the drugs,the sex,the every nights a party thing.
after awhile it can be so draining.
you dont know who you can trust.
who's real, who's fake.
its just a lifestyle im not used to.
and i dont know if i want to get used to it.
i mean its fun now, but theres no long term in it.
i dont still wanna be doing that five years from now.
i want to be done with school and starting a career.
i dont know.
i just need to set boundaries and stick to my guns this time around.
i mean ill still hang out but no more binge weeks of partying hard.
im over it.
"God determines who walks into your life.. it's up
to you to decide who you're letting to walk away, who
you're letting to stay, & who you refuse to let go."
p.s. i love this tattoo!